:: I'm Kissing You ::
Its so strange.

Getting news from someone out there. I really do not understand. What makes you think I wish to hear from you?

What makes you think I would still care?

It feels so strange. Perhaps, secretly I do care. A little. I do care about whether or not you will ever change. Whether or not you will grow up. At this very moment, I give a shit. Not the way I used to. But in a way of a person who genuinely cares for a memory.

The things we talked about.


I wished someday you would wake up and know there is still a God out there. I wished one day you'll know you're just simply way too old for certain things. There were so much things in you that people believed in. So much hope. Too much I wish you were able to give away an ounce or two for me. The little, bitter, suicidal, unstable me, -the one I used to be. The one who used to make your day just with a smile cos a smile from me was so very hard to come by.

Perhaps that is why I feel strange. Cos I do know that I will always have a soft spot deep in you.

Wherever.

You were my friend. I do not deny this. But you are not now. You were my friend in memory. You've taught me that maybe I can find happiness somewhere else in the world, just by starting to wonder by looking at a map.

And you know what...I didn't even look far. The happiness is here.

You taught me that.

This thing here has always been dedicated to you. And it will always be dedicated to you.
Delusional
I believe I can cure it all for you, dear
Coax or trick or drive or
drag the demons from you
Make it right for you sleeping beauty
Truly thought
I can magically heal you

You're far beyond a visible sign of your awakening
Failing miserably to rescue

Sleeping Beauty

Drunk on ego
Truly thought I could make it right
If I kissed you one more time to
Help you face the nightmare
But you're far too poisoned for me
Such a fool to think that I can wake you from your slumber
That I could actually heal you..

Sleeping Beauty
Poisoned and hopeless
You're far beyond a visible sign of your awakening
Failing miserably to find a way to comfort you

Far beyond a visible sign of your awakening
And hiding from some poisoned memory

Poisoned and hopeless
Sleeping Beauty

And yes, its by A Perfect Circle.